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23rd aug 2024 05:30:14

i don't spend a lot of time like she'd expect me to do so i am grateful for her. not the dream boyfriend she expected, but i make upto it by being toxic and annoying. i behave like an asshole from time to time but she is patient. i am mending my ways one by one, fixing them. obviously flawed and i try to make it upto her from time to time. she's super intelligent, curious, beautiful, appreciative of the small things, highly empathetic, and if i've learned to see things in different perspectives, she might also be one reason. i will never leave her. maybe i am telling too much info here. bye bye.

23rd aug 2024 19:35:42

she really loved it. i sent her a vn saying that i've a surprise without mentioning anything and she immediately found it that it must be in my website as soon as she woke up. sent me a screenshot. i've butterflies in my stomach, but to have that after a year into the relationship is what makes my believe in love. i've not mentioned before, but it must be noted that she actually sends me a rose bouquet every week to my office and it's a cute routine for me to remove all the dried up roses from previous week and replace them with new ones. she hasn't sent new ones for the past two weeks since she told me that she went out of budget (this is cute). have i ever mentioned she sends me cute pickup lines along with the roses? i remember the time she mentioned that she actually sent white roses but they turned red as i opened them since they were blushing. cute max. i've not replaced the dried roses in my office vase, but to my surprise, even though the roses have dried to crisp, they still haven't lost much of their color. i am learning a lot of about roses now.

23rd aug 2024 19:50:29

she read this and told me that if i was next to her she'd bite the flesh out of me. vampiry. quite sexy. and she also told me that she loves me so much. plus added that i am the best. ok, this is absolutely cute and she has zero idea how much i love her to bits.

24th aug 2024 11:11:42

i send her good morning vn every day as soon as i wake up. literally the first person my eye sees in my mobile as soon as they open and for the past one week the replies weren't that happy. but today it was a sudden change. she sent a long gooood morning and also sent her sleepy face selfie. extra cute. she's super lazy rolling out of bed today. clumsily swaying in bed without waking up

24th aug 2024 14:11:10

she just got up and told me she went for lunch. she has sent me a lot of endearing gifs today. i love her more now. imagine you're just sitting there tensed in office doing hundreds of things and then this notifications pop up on the side of your screen. puts a smile on your face without realizing. few minutes in - you catch yourself smiling like a happy monkey with every teeth visible. i love smiling stupid like that. for the right person, it's worth everything.

24th aug 2024 16:08:11

her mom teased her twice about me. it's funny that her mom knows she likes me a lot but she keeps pretending to her mom as if she doesn't. everytime she does that, i send something to her mom. except ice creams - she has attributed a lot of things which i send to her friends so that she doesn't have to explain to her mom about me. but i do have a good feeling that her mom knows that they're from me. all it needs to startle her is an instamart/swiggy sms that i've ordered something for her. sksksks ok i like her too much. i ain't gonna walk in love with her. i am falling hard. like super hard. but it's a bed of roses with no thorns. i mean, it pricks from time to time, but we do talk to identify and remove them. and i've got a lot to remove from me.

24th aug 2024 17:08:42

i asked her if she wanted me to see all of my latest notes at the top instead of reading new ones at the bottom of the page. she told me that she likes to read everything from the top everytime and asked me to keep them at the bottom. i love her sooo much.. but probably i'd like to revist this in a few days time when i've a lot of notes to see what i like. but isn't my love notes for her or is it for me too? or she might change her mind too. let's see which happens first. i see her selecting sarees for her mom. should i let her know a secret? select the ones which you want to wear so that you can take them after your mom stops wearing it after once or twice. i tried doing this for my dad and it kinda backfired since he got into shape and started stealing mine instead.

25th aug 2024 18:15:30

i told my darling how the bible has intructed me to be bewitched by my wife's beauty - as i'm doing now and in the future and she told me i'm such a goooood husband with a monkey hiding it's face emoji, a heart emoji and a kiss emoji. i am sure she meant what i'd be in the future and i swear that i dont wanna disappoint her by being a bad husband. i gotta do a lot of homework

25th aug 2024 20:18:20

mademoiselle is stressed because she's not getting privacy with her room-mate. so she's looking to move out separately.

26th aug 2024 10:29:12

i told me baby gurl to wake me up in the morning so that i can go to the gym. she actually went to sleep earlier than i did - do you know who woke up before? meeeee! i sent her my good morning vn and she later texted me back by 08:13 when she woke up and she was guilty that she didn't wake me up. little did she know that in my dreams, she softly kissed over my eyelids, caressed my hair by running her fingers through it, gently tugged on it by slipping her hands behind my head so that my head can be tilted up from my pillow. she licked my tongue, kissed me and i woke up to that. literally woke me up from my dream. guess what did she do when i told her that she actually woke me up without waking me up? kicking her little feet like a happy bunny giggling. she didn't tell me that, but that's what i imagined her doing that when she texted me back with some 100 kissing gifs. plus she called me the sweetestttt.. on a monday morning. guess who's not gonna have any monday blues? it's me babbbyyyy..ok i feel cute. need to harden myself up for the world.

26th aug 2024 14:00:45

i am literally having a tough monday with monday blues, but my girl is helping me keep the spirits up and therefore no monday blueeee babyyyy.. just grinding.

26th aug 2024 17:35:25

i am feeling super guilty that i am not getting time to spend time with my love. have regularized much of my work and i am sorting my life out - first starting with sleep. work went amazing and her little chirpy chats all over the day light up my day as her texts keep beeming from one corner of the side screen which i have. although there's a reason why i have three screens to give me a overview and work at an insane rate plus learn, she's one of the reasons the triple screen needs to stay. a cute spot for her. a cute spot in the pixel ground. i love her so much.

27th aug 2024 11:20:12

a bad sleep, but i woke up good. no breakfast, only tea and my mademoiselle's cheery good morning is keeping me going. post standup, now have to crack the whole day. let's goooo

27th aug 2024 18:35:45

again, i am super heldup that i didn't find much time to speak to her. hopefully with all of those hectic things getting done fast, i should be able to spend quality time with her from next week. whatever i do won't keep up with how much affection she has on me with the little attention i am giving her. one day, this will all be worth it when i get more time to spend with her and family. i love her to her tiniest bits and would squeeze her with a giant hug and would never let her go

27th aug 2024 19:50:12

i've a big surprise. she just told me that she read the love notes again and called me a "cutu puttu" awwww. i asked her how did she know when i push it online. i didn't write a service to alert new updates, yet - i was planning to build it for her and it seems that it's not necessary since she told me that it's her new favorite hobby. refreshing my love notes to see if there's something new. i thought she's bluffing and it turns out my mademoiselle prettiness isn't. she also told me that she reads our chats whenever she misses me, look at our chat media and play my voice notes. do you know what my voice notes are? good morning messages as soon as i open my eyes in my ugly coarse voice. to imagine she likes playing them, is she messing up with me? :p ok i love her.

28th aug 2024 12:26:45

an idiot hurt her at work and he doesn't know that i exist and she doesn't know that i'll go to the ends of the world to draw, hang and quarter him. she's handling it well as of now. i am fuming so much that i am calling reinforcements. i want his kneecaps broken or blown. no one, no one dares touch the love of my life. if i am doing all of this for just mere words, i'd wipe the whole bloodline for anything worse than that.

28th aug 2024 14:15:18

i am a teleprompter now and she ain't listening to what i am saying. can understand. my poor babe is scared and she's finding words. panic attack? maybe. i wish i was with her now. i would have loved to reach my hand through the screen and cave in his face with a single blow of my hand. i promise, single blow.

28th aug 2024 15:00:12

my love belled the cat. who belled the cat? my mademoiselle did. the princess did. suck it losers. she's there to be a ladyboss

28th aug 2024 20:12:00

i realized that in the process of helping to defend my princess, i might have hurt her inadvertently by scaring her. i really really have to be soft around my princess. practice patience, calm, never anything that frightens her. she's my babygurl and she doesn't want to see theses. forever wants to stay in her soft-girl era and if my love wants it, so shall be it. i have to ensure she's never hurt. btw, i just came from the first birthday celebration of a woman whom i used to date/like for a small time during my first year of undergraduate degree. i was saying that to my girl and i wonder how she feels. mademoiselle hates when i tell about the people i've gone out and wishes that i saw or dated her first before anyone else. cute. i love her so much. love her to bits

29th aug 2024 19:40:12

i was so proud of my mademoiselle that i was talking about her to my team. how much do i love about her, that she has brought in a new meaning to the purpose of what and how i live my life. small steps towards discipline. can't wait to show her the new improved me soon. a metamorphosis instead of a change. i sadly didn't get to talk a lot with her today. hopefully, this ends with this week as i cleaar off my backlog duties.

30th aug 2024 11:30:12

you have zero idea how much i missed my babygurl in the morning. i sent her my usual vn, and then came the most sweetest wish ever. i realized something today. my girl has become so sweet in the past few days. it's not about spending time with her, it's about spending quality time with her and i have been seeing that i've increased that meaningful time. perhaps, maybe couples feel burnouts especially in long distance because in the initial time you speak a lot and then you take the call and you be there on that call with no purpose. maybe it's not because you haven't fallen out of love, it's just that you don't talk when you really feel like talking but talk because you're forced to? i don't feel all of this my mademoiselle. i just like talking to her. i just like hearing her voice. i just love her chirp even if i am working on something. i'll literally sleep to her voice.

30th aug 2024 13:00:12

i forgot to tell you i found out that my babe wanted to gift me a watch for my birthday

30th aug 2024 15:25:35

my babe spoke with me now and asked me what do i want for my birthday. i replied 'you'. she's blushing. i am jumping up and down. butterflies in my stomach.

30th aug 2024 17:15:24

hahahahahaa he sent me a wild text i loveeeeeeeeeee herrrrr especially the fact that she can search up my old texts and bring thee back. love her to her tiniest bits so much.. i forgot to say something. she literally slept on call when she was talking with me yesterday. i listened to her breathing in and out for 30 or so minutes before i disconnected the call smiling all the way to my sleep. i felt so warm. looking forward to tonight

31st aug 2024 18:45:24

today was a slow day for me. i wished my babygirl her best wish every morning as usual and she replied back very late still wallowing in her sleep. i wish i was there to see her lazily be in bed hugging the comforter as she twirls in her sleep. when i told her that i am gonna push my nose into her face to touch her nose and fence with it, she told me that she's gonna put her hands around my neck and pull me closerrr sksksksksks do you know how cute it is? sent me a hundred butterflies in my stomach when i saw the text. last night i discussed a new startup idea with my love. running it through her and might run more today. one thing i noticed is that my love is a thoughtful planner of presents. knows what the receiver would want the most and will give them that.

31st aug 2024 23:19:12

i will feed my love if she's near me. literally like stuffing a turkey. i don't want her to suffer in hunger anyways. i will cook for her, while she sits on my kitchen island. that'd be life

02nd sep 2024 21:41:12

i had a whole ass tough day, made cuter by my mademoiselle wishing me very late. babe had to face her own struggles today with her monthly war. she's waging a good war and is winning. i am so sad that i am not able to reinforce her battle by actually being with her and cooking for her. she's suffering from pain and i want her to eat healthily. ofcourse i can cook tasty veg dishes, anything she asks. i actually eat more veg than any vegetarian out there, but you get the point to what ends i am willing to go for my mademoiselle. warm pouches? no one invented anything till now to lessen the pain of a woman going through period yet? i have one more confession to make. i didn't do qna's/ama's in my ig story because i was sad that i am not able to spend much time with my mademoiselle. focusing to answer all those questions will take my mind somewhere else rather than let it be at home, in her memories, dancing with her, squeezing her, hugging her and prancing around happily with her held tightly in my arms. i love her so much.

03rd sep 2024 12:37:14

my princess is doing better now. has an amazing mood and she told me that she's sending me floweerssss i am jumping jumping jumping here and thereeee.. she's so cute. do you know that she's also an expert in skin care? she tells me a lot and i end up using mysore sandal soap hehe.

03rd sep 2024 13:38:24

my love just sent me a complete skincare routine. gonna order and start using. i love her sooo much. muahhhhhh.

03rd sep 2024 19:02:34

i realised that my mademoiselle has literally made checking these love notes i write, as her own hobby - often reloading it to see if i've written new stuff. i've asked her multiple times if she wants me to write the new ones at the top so it's easy for her. but baby told me she wants to read it from the top everytime. i decided to decrease the page speed from 445 ms to sub 50 ms so it loads faster for her. love makes other people move mountains, i just made a website load faster. i know i am lame, but good kinda lame. hehe i have butterflies inside of my stomach now as i am writing. i am 100% certain it's not hunger as i had my lunch. it's a good feeling and i am blushing. i love her soooo much.

06th sep 2024 13:48:12

i was super busy the past few days not being able to spend time with the love of life and i became super sad when i heard that she was constantly trying to load this page and couldn't find my entry. it is cute. i was sharing to her how i was thrown speechless for literally the second time in my life yesterday and we laughed over it. i did spend a lot of time with my love on one day, now i realized what matters when i can't text or call her, its that i respect that a person who loves you is waiting for you in the opposite side - completely yearning for your love, waiting to see if your text or call pops up. i used to do this mistake a lot of time where i'll tell her that i will text her back and i would end up not doing that because i was engrossed when i am coding, reading or speaking with someone without keeping tracking of time. i have realized this multiple times that i'm making her wait, but this is the second time i am actively taking action on fixing it mindfully. i tried it doing it the first time and i failed. now i am trying to wear a watch, a practice i dropped years ago - so that i can keep track of the time i tell her that i will get back. it's week 2 of trying to wear it daily. failing in that, but i am fixing that as well. now i am practively letting her know if i am busy and asking her to go and sleep so that she doesn't have to be awake for me and keep waiting for me when i am at the other end forgetting that time is running ahead. there are few more things that has happened. i need to buy the routine my mademoiselle has suggested for me and use it regularly instead of just mysore sandal soap. i love her so much. i think she'll make a good mom and a good wife.

08th sep 2024 13:24:14

yesterday was one of the most beautiful days of my life. yesterday her roommate was not there so she was on a video call with me on her laptop and i was there sleeping, talking to her with my phone using the walls as a support, talking with my love. i literally dozed off to sleep in the middle and then she woke me up and asked me to go to sleep properly on my pillow. she showed me some drawings which she had made and she took some screenshots of me sleeping so that she can draw me. are you blessed to have a girlfriend like that who'll draw you when you're sleeping? i have. wish i can shout into the mountains that i love her so that the avalanche i cause with my shouting can conquer lands for me which i can gift to her.

08th sep 2024 21:12:08

mademoiselle has started fighting today. like clockwork. attention deficit. the problem is mine though. i have to fix it.

09th sep 2024 08:34:42

it has always fascinated me about why people in a relationship and people outside it or viewing it, see fighting or an argument in a relationship as something bad or toxic. is it a crime to disagree or is it a crime to make mistakes? we humans are flawed. i knew it's my mistake that i wasn't able to spend time with my mademoiselle even though i promised to spend time with her. i had my own reasons as to why, but isn't it foolish to expect her to buy those reasons, no matter how genuine they are? where did her feelings go? her feelings wanted to feel loved, embraced, cared for and a lot of other things and a girl is never wrong in expecting all of this. atleast my mademoiselle isn't expecting me to do all of that every day - but atleast during the weekends. she wanted me to spend time with her in the weekends with her. totally justifiable. and due to some circumstances, i wasn't able to. why is it wrong for her to feel angry about this? it isn't. people try to justify that it should be their reason alone which is above someone else's? i did a mistake, i own it. i was the reason she's angry. and she's rightfully angry. two of those things can be true and can very well exist. i do believe with all of these, two people who love can talk, can eat food, can cook and feed each other and still love even though something has caused anger towards them. this is how i handled last night. i dont know if my love likes how i handled this, but this is a newer introspection for me, about myself and my interactions with other humans. i am constantly trying to improve and speed up the iterative feedback loop to become better so that i can be a good husband and father to our kids and fulfill the duty towards family. my love was truly hungry and i am glad that she finally had her dinner before going to sleep

11th sep 2024 13:22:12

she sent me her weekly flowers yesterday and she was a little upset that they're sending in cheap flowers when she has ordered the best ones, and it has happened twice in a row - them shortchanging her. i've got the address from her so that i can pay them a little cute visit. probably will be sending in proper roses after my visit. no one comes between her gifts to her monsieur. i also think i should stop doing this ama in the weekend in ig or i should put that on some other day. even though last week the ama-qna wasn't the reason i wasn't able to spend time with her, i dont want it to send a wrong message that he's not texting me but writing detailed answer to anons in ig and posting them in stories. bad optics. probbaly move them to some other day or drop it. all of that isn't worth seeing her sad or cry. a lot to change in my life.

13th sep 2024 12:34:12

i missed my love so much yesterday. i had two days of so much work work in the office and my head was in pain knowing that i had to sort them out. and also the fact that damn if i dont spend time with the love of my life, she'll miss me more. i am just happy that she understood that i am working hard now so that i can provide for her and the family in the future. i wish my mademoiselle was with me so that i can give her whatever she wants, cook whatever she wants, especially her midnight mac n cheese cravings. i hate when they mess up late night orders when i try to get something for her. my love wanted her garlic breads and they couldn't send that. imagine that. i am making her the best garlic bread next time when she's with me. do we cok for the ones we love because we like them so much or do we just fatten them up so they can't run away from you? just attractive to you and nobody else. hehe. my mom did that to my dad by purposefully feeding him more rice hahahaha. i just want my babe to be hot, all the time. i have to work hard for the same too. i love her so muchhhh. btw, we've scheduled a small disagreement conversation to the weekend. scheduling fights is better. 1000 kisses to her. muah muah muah everywhere. tight hugs

13th sep 2024 14:24:12

she looks really hot in her mirror selfies. ok made me blush in my meetings when the pics popped up. i am giggling like a little girl now. and my feet is dancing. i am sure they're butterflies and i am not hungry. aaawww i love herrr...

14th sep 2024 16:40:18

so she noticed that the seconds in the timer are always even hehe. i mean if she's noticing this much, how am i supposed to hide secret messages here? i've to do hardwork now. i know a secret. i need to get her waffles from time to time. make it belgian always.

14th sep 2024 21:57:04

my babe made me blush in the middle of the road. damn. i know she's been doing this with her texts from time to time when i am in meetings but this is damnnnn. how am i supposed to be with my full concentration here when my blood is flowing somewhere else? plus, i need to get her a roman or greek styled full mirror. convincing her to get her own place but her stubborn ass wants to save money to send me roses and pamper me. like please upgrade yourself babeeeee. i love my mademoiselle the mosttttt. btw, in order to make navigation easier for my love while she's in her mobile, i added some sparkly stuff over the headers.

16th sep 2024 23:45:16

my love really sent me one of the best flowers ever. i think she has changed the flower vendor to send me my usual monday flowers. i've a grudge to hold and knock the knees of the prev. flower vendor pretty soon for cheating my mademoiselle of her beautiful flowers. i was teaching her how not to mess up pasta. she tried her first pesto pasta and she didn't heat it up. it was from yesterday and i asked her to heat it up before eating to unlock the salt and spice. she has a weird way of heating up food products. super weird. mademoiselle used a hair dryer to heat it up. hehehe funny quirky and makes me curious what other super weird stuff she might be into. more than a year and i know little about my baby girl. i couldn't spend any time with her. hopefully soon, i can fix my routine better. i need to do this fast instead of just saying her i am doing it i am doing it. i feel bad.

17th sep 2024 18:52:24

my mademoiselle looks absolutely beautiful, charming, hot hot hawt hawttttttttt - i am telling myself, i can go to war for my princess. now i understood why troy happened and men fought wars for women. danggggg.

18th sep 2024 20:41:12

my love is missing me a lot and she's sending me a lot of emojis. i just noticed that she has a bunch of emojis that she sends me everytime. all are funny. naughty ones, crying ones, smirking ones hahaha. she has them all.

18th sep 2024 23:51:14

do you know what my mademoiselle did? her highness left her charger in her office hehe. i offered to buy her another one just to keep it here. went on gmeet to call her to switch on her phone. i get pissed when someone doesn't pick my call when i ring especially and that anxiety shoots up when you love someone dearly. this is especially when i rarely call people and text them mostly outside my immediate circle. and to add to this my love didn't even eat anything and i immediately got her some dinner. do you know what i hate the most than someone close to me not picking up my call? them not eating. not under my watch.

19th sep 2024 18:45:36

bwahahahaha guess what she named ufo as. i will never forget it. haha. i am also blushing hard. i sent her hand pics instead of feet pics. it works.

20th sep 2024 22:14:48

mademoiselle got angry has sent me a screenshot of me likeing another girl's reel. this is her first time over all of this time. hehe. btw, i found an easy way to piss her off or to make her extremely jealous. might pull this off from time to time to keep her fiestyyyy. hehe. i love this little cute dumplinggg so much.

21st sep 2024 19:17:34

i shot and sent the second video of mine doing an unboxing. only this time, mademoiselle has sent me a gift for my birthdayyyy. she has sent me an expensive watch. i love her so muchhhh. muah my mademoiselle!

22nd sep 2024 19:24:12

i am incredibly blessed to have my love wish me at 00:00. i am literally gonna make sure that she runs a cute cozy cafe with a bookstore and a flowershop outside that loses some money every month haha just to see my little angel happy and put a smile to everyone around her.

23rd sep 2024 23:24:12

i wonder who suggested her to read the nihilistic dosto-sadman-evsky novels? there's something in there that make me feel they're repugnant. it's okay if someone talks about depression, cope with it or get out of it. but these brainrot idiots do one step up. they romanticize depression. the only person my mademoiselle needs to romanticize is me, the toxic prince!

24th sep 2024 19:47:18

my mademoiselle sent me beautiful white roses and i do remember when the last time i posted 186 women unfollowed me in my ig. i've been fairly open about me dating someone for a long time. sometimes, i can't understand them. btw, i love her. today i went with the watch my girlfriend gifted me for my birthday. now i can shift between the watch my sister and her husband gifted and the one my mademoiselle gave. my love's gift is very beautiful and i loved it so much. last night my girlfriend got slightly irritated that i am about to hire a personal assistant. lol. plus she has learned how to shop better now. a top she purchased today is 8/10. chef's kiss.

25th dec 2024 23:51:22

it's a tough thing trying to write this in public after 1500 daily visits and since it has dropped now, i am gonna start again. maybe i should put a pass on this part of the site? but i figured out that my mademoiselle when she loads the page i don't want it to pop up a pass annoying her. i'd need to be consistently active here and then bring all the offline journals on the missed 3 months and fill them in. hehe, she doesn't know that i am gonna update them back again after getting a little disappointed that i am no longer writing these. guess this will be a surprise for my sweet honey pie.

26th dec 2024 22:16:14

one of the most underrated hack at maintaining great relationships imo is feeding your spouse. and i do think calling your spouse as a partner is a little bit making the relationship too transactional. formal or perhaps meh bleh you're not in love? where was i? getting distracted. so, when my mademoiselle is usually pissed off or just angry, one of the things i do is just figure out what she is craving at that specific moment and feed my little baby. that's it. i loved my today's day with her and she's been asking me where are the love notes for the past 3 months and phew, i need to fill them up. i actually made her super anxious today by telling her a little something of the big thing which i wanted to tell her and telling her at the end of the day. i didn't do that purposefully at all but cupcake is thinking i did. all is good now and she's sleeping like the sleeping beauty she is. i'll wake her up with my kiss vn like how a proper prince should wake up the sleeping beauty princess from her sleep.

27th dec 2024 21:34:24

i recently learnt that when your girlfriend is upset and is sad, or crying about something it doesn't mean that they are angry over you over something that you did or something that you said etc., sometimes it may not even be over the things that you've control over. so when you learn what those things are, you might feel guilty if you were the one who overshared it in the first place. one of your first instincts might be that you should stop sharing it to them. but look at that in this perspective. it's not about what you share, but what those stuffs that you shared did to them. we often blame our spouses for being insecure about things (and i am certainly not speaking about incel insecurity stuff). if we truly love them, wouldn't you talk with them to understand what exactly gives them that fear, talk with them and sort it out? you just need to address that fear. the fear most probably would be about what's the worst possible thing that can happen to them and what would you do/act in that situation about the same? how will you deal with that situation? that's exactly what they want to hear. talk with them about it. convince them how amazingly you'd solve that and that problem is solved. not just that problem, every other fear that has the same outcome. listen, be patient, and strike a conversation. most people would say - talk. but i do believe that most people do not understand what talking is and they think that their voice is the only voice they should hear and that is wrong. that's called an oration. have a conversation.

28th dec 2024 15:11:14

she hung up her phone before my last kiss in my call could go through. sad. heartbreak. tears welling up in my eyes. crying. now she owes me 10x of those kisses. i am gonna collect them with interestttt.

28th dec 2024 22:23:14

okay i got all of what is mine with full interest. we're discussing hair styles. i have already shortlisted few beautiful hairstyles that my princess is gonna get and i am super excited.

29th dec 2024 13:30:14

i strongly believe that one of the core things in any relationships is how you navigate the biggest disagreements you've with your partner. i crossed the rubicon.

29th dec 2024 21:36:14

hahahaha i seriously would not believe this happened, nobody else also will understand. so there's this new si unit measurement system that my gf created which is jd. i mean that has created some problems today where the standard behind that measurement tore into some fabric since it was not containable under the constraints of boundary under pressure.

30th dec 2024 13:12:24

lmao, my gf went ahead to clear her doubts since she couldn't believe my explanation.

30th dec 2024 15:34:42

my mademoiselle is being extra cute today. i think she's compensating for being a snappy turtle on sunday. she's being so lovely that i am melting over and falling head over heel in love again and again. i mean what is walking into love? you should just fall face first just like this. plop plop. ahhhhh.. i think this is the first time this also happened. she getting snappy that i am cheating on her with another girl in her dream lmao.

30th dec 2024 23:54:22

okay my heart is racing too hard. i had to come up and whip up my vscode to write this last entry for today. my mademoiselle is literally melting my heart. so many appreciations... aaaaahhhh i am melting melting melting. i am not supposed to melt like a pookieeeee... aargh okay i can't say aargh. i love her i love her so much. she has literally zero idea that i am ending the year at an all time high. all of this appreciation is like.. idk insane huge power to rake up so much wins next year that i can't just keep getting tired of wins. it's wins so often that i have to record them. let's gooooooooooooooooooooooo. i am unstoppable.

31st dec 2024 13:12:24

i've never been super excited about giving back to her today :p i did. i made her day. yay.

31st dec 2024 22:14:44

she traumatized someone. i am feeling bad for him. we're selecting earrings for my mademoiselle's day out tomorrow with her friends.

i heard a beautiful love story from someone i am currently consulting. both of them high school sweet hearts. finished mbbs together. have to prep for md. boy's dad wants to force him to go for practice instead of doing md. girlfriend goes to a city famous for its prep. he goes there with little money he had. takes the couch in a small room where he's basically insulted by others since he cannot give his share. starves. but can't attend the weekend classes there since he can't afford it. classes are on weekend and the rest of the week you sit and prepare 16 hrs a day to crack the neet. the girlfriend would take all notes and he'd wait in the park outside the coaching center. she'll bring some food and also the entire notes and he'll copy everything from her and will prepare. during all of this time, they kept their relationship alive with their occassional texts. the girlfriend supported getting all those copies, necessary papers, stationery and all other expenses with her money. this will continue every week. that coaching center is so famous that if you come in the top xx in the coaching center, you'll rank xx in national test. such was their coaching and their results. after doing her mock tests, she'll bring the q. paper and he'll sit in the park to answer all of them. both of them will check with the answer key to see if he's getting into that top xx rankings. and so he did. when the national test finally came, both topped the lists, got into their respective md position - i heard their entire story and it was so amazing but this this this part? this is a testament to love. an amazing story that just keeps the hope of a fiery love burning 24/7

i am writing this few hrs before new year breaks and this actually touched me. may them and their tribe be blessed forever.

01st jan 2025 22:11:12

my mademoiselle looked so beautiful today in her cute little white top. hehe she actually didn't want to wear the black sweatshirt since her mom didn't want her to wear something black on the first day of the year lol. so she went with white and dang she made the right choice. i am fainting. muah muah i love her so much.

02nd jan 2025 20:35:32

dear diary, today's discussion is around long hair vs short hair. i usually say have long hair, she'll be like okay if you want, so be it. she usually likes her hair shorter than i usually love. so today, a long hair pic comes and asks me if you want it like that. i decided to be empathetic and tell her, okay that might be hard to manage, i am okay if you cut it shorter. now, she's like j during the first 3 months would have said it's okay if you've long hair, i'll help you maintain them. i am crying now. i remember the iconic paper, attention is all you need and i do submit. attention is the number one currency and i am gonna make sure i am gonna send that value of the currency rocket high. and yeah, i am trying to keep up with the time i tell her that i will get back. sharp sharp. i adore and love her soooo much.

02nd jan 2025 23:10:00

my mademoiselle asked me to tell her she's my favourite. we were already competing over who loves whom more and now she wants this said separately too. you are my favourite, baby. my favourite girl, my favourite person. i love that she asks me these things. she has zero idea how happily i'll keep telling her.

03rd jan 2025 08:44:02

my love gets two good morning vns of my ugly sleepy voice. two versions of the same boyfriend saying good morning and she wants both. awww baby. i love that she likes hearing me like this, before i've even found something interesting to say.

03rd jan 2025 13:29:26

my mademoiselle wants pretty beaches and i somehow became the person sending reasons not to go. immediately got compared to her mom. deserved. she wants to dream about a holiday and i'm arriving with objections. i do want to go places with her. i am working on my beach body too, although apparently that is not a complete answer to a travel question. her and a pretty beach. yes please. let me stay in that thought for a moment before my brain opens another discussion.

04th jan 2025 22:57:54

dear diary, today's class is sarees. big border, small border, butta, zari. my mademoiselle is showing me the difference between the borders and i am discussing the colours. very attentive student. then i asked if the border is called pallu. no. pallu is mundhanai. border is border. okay. i know how much i don't know now. she also explained why that loud yellow gold looks wrong to her and suddenly i can see the thing she was pointing out. i like listening to her explain these things. she has very clear opinions and her boyfriend has a lot of questions.

04th jan 2025 23:46:36

she called herself a scared warrior. she was nervous about speaking up but she did it and i told her i was proud. very proud. being scared didn't stop my mademoiselle. i love her.

05th jan 2025 11:00:28

mom asked me to thank my mademoiselle for the cups. they loved them. she had been checking whether they arrived safely, whether i'd given them to mom and dad, whether they'd opened them and whether they liked them. meanwhile the person responsible for handing over the cups was taking his own sweet time. me. today i finally gave her the review and she asked nejamava. yes, they really liked them. i find this so endearing about her. my parents have their cups and i have a girlfriend asking if my parents are happy. i love her.

06th jan 2025 21:58:02

my mademoiselle has recorded this as zero attention day. there are gifs. there are messages. there is a very clear case against me. i was busy announcing that i'm a cute little guy while she was asking me to talk to her. apparently being cute does not excuse being unavailable. fair. i love her so much and she should get more of me than the announcement that i love her. attention, jason. the very thing i keep writing about.

07th jan 2025 21:54:54

i replied ok and my mademoiselle asked why i was being rude. say okay baby or something. okay baby. fixed. i wasn't angry with her but apparently i expected her to find all the affection hidden inside two letters. very efficient compression, terrible communication. she wants her boyfriend in the message too. not a receipt confirming that her words have reached me. i love her. okay baby from now on. need to remember it when i actually type.

09th jan 2025 23:21:52

i sent my mademoiselle aloo paratha and somehow sent almost everything twice. two parathas, two vada boxes, two ice creams, two jamuns. wedges too. i told her it was only konjam and then she started reading out the quantities. ahem. fat fingers. apparently my fingers love her enough to order a second meal on their own. she liked the paratha and kept the rest for later. btw she also asked how to order me on swiggy. that is what i want to talk about. all these things available and she wants this particular man delivered. i told her i'm going to invent instant teleportation. very important project.

10th jan 2025 16:26:18

one of her earrings arrived broken and needed soldering. i told my mademoiselle i could do it and she asked can you???? really???? baby, i am a mechanical engineer first. she'd almost forgotten. so i sent the old welding pictures and now she's telling me i look hotter as a mechanical engineer than a ceo. she even had a confession to make. i think i have a crush on you. on her own boyfriend. aaaaah. she kept calling me babbi, bebbi, babe, all the possible spellings while asking for more pictures. then she started listing that i can weld, build, cook, code and that i love her. even i'm jealous of myself, she said. how am i supposed to behave after reading all of that. i told her i'm the lucky one because i have a beautiful loving girlfriend who's very intelligent. she has zero idea what all this appreciation does to me. i love her soooo much.

12th jan 2025 00:01:40

my love had twenty five cute laptop stickers in her cart and wanted me to look at them. they can go on bottles and ipads too, wash proof, very cute. i liked the pink camera one and told her to get them. then she asked if i was sure, if i'd actually looked, if i still approved. yes yes baby, i looked. she finally got them. btw she also told me the chaat had made her stomach full and more than that, heartful. she'd been craving it so badly. heartful. i love that word from her. i can sit here trying to explain why i love feeding my mademoiselle and she explains the whole thing in one word. my baby enjoyed her food and wanted me to know how much. i love her.

12th jan 2025 18:44:18

she said she finished an entire book while waiting for me to call back. i asked which book. this is an insult btw, she had to explain. aiyo jason. she is telling me how long i took and i've wandered into a book recommendation. i don't like making her wait. i also seem to be very good at forgetting how much time has passed while i'm doing something. those two things cannot keep living together in my head without me fixing the second one. my mademoiselle deserves the call i said i'd make.

13th jan 2025 11:20:26

i learnt a few things about my hands. my mademoiselle likes watching me type and drive. apparently the hands have an audience i wasn't fully accounting for. now i am going to become conscious of typing. i used these hands for so many things ifykyk isksksksksks :p and somehow the most effective thing they did was operate a steering wheel. interesting. i can spend ages trying to say something impressive and she is busy admiring a completely different feature. i love finding these things out.

14th jan 2025 13:30:14

my mademoiselle looked beautiful in her pictures. i asked about what she was wearing and she said stole, so obviously i told her she stole my heart. she said good one. recorded. she has approved one of my lines and i intend to remember this when she questions my sense of humor. but look at her. so pretty. doesn't feel any less exciting just because i've seen so many pictures of her before.

15th jan 2025 23:31:36

she expected idli and got a disappointing dosa instead. i offered to send idli but she'd already eaten. later i sent belgian waffles and got a very elongated thank you. she had ice cream and a waffle and kept the rest. my baby enjoyed it. i love getting those messages where the thank you has so many extra letters that i can almost hear her saying it.

16th jan 2025 12:36:58

i hurt my love over a ring. she bought one she really liked and it bent. i started explaining the gold and what could be done to fix it, which made her feel worse for telling me. see, in my head i am solving the problem. but she knows another ring can be bought. she wanted to tell me how disappointed she was about this one and i went straight into the explanation. i do this too often. today i told her i'd work on the issues she highlighted and she asked why i was talking in email language. aiyo. even while trying to tell my girlfriend i understood her, i managed to sound like i was replying to an email. i want her to keep telling me things. i don't want her thinking she'll just feel worse after talking to me. need to listen to my baby properly before my brain starts offering solutions.

17th jan 2025 20:20:00

my mademoiselle sent me a picture and i keep looking at it. that top, her expression. she is so beautiful. i've seen so many pictures of her and somehow the next one still gets me. how am i supposed to get anything done if she keeps doing this.

18th jan 2025 17:07:14

she sent me pictures of the roses i'd given her. dried petals now, and then another picture with more of them. i love that we both keep these. i remember writing about the roses she sends me and how even after drying to a crisp they hadn't lost much of their colour. now i'm looking at her keeping little pieces of the ones from me. my mademoiselle is so cute. i don't think either of us is very interested in throwing them away just because they're no longer fresh.

18th jan 2025 21:28:56

my princess is learning something new. she was worried about choosing something difficult, but i want her to give it a try. i am so proud of her. i want to hear what she figures out and make a huge fuss when she tells me.

21st jan 2025 10:18:56

my love says her hair has never been this soft. she keeps touching it and wishes i could touch it too. i want it all over my face. smelling it. apparently a conversation about shampoo can make me weak in the knees. then she said she doesn't want to use it because it'll get over. baby that's what happens when you use it. please enjoy the shampoo. she has found something she loves and is now trying to preserve it by not using it. i love her. soft hair, stubborn princess.

22nd jan 2025 11:55:08

my love is excited about something new and now we get to choose the things she wants for it. i like this part too. she has plans, there are little decisions to make, and i get to hear all about them. my mademoiselle, i am excited for you.

23rd jan 2025 08:03:56

there is more to hear about her new interest. i want all the updates, baby. what she's figuring out, what she likes, what she doesn't. i love that she tells me these little things as she goes.

24th jan 2025 12:53:34

she dreamt of us sleeping together. literally sleeping like babies, she clarified. awwww. then she showed me keys and said we should have these for our house. one for you, one for me. i started discussing how big the doors would have to be. my mademoiselle is being romantic and her boyfriend is checking the dimensions of an imaginary building. she said that's okay, the keys are cute. they are. i love the way she says our house. just like that. her key and mine. i would like that very much.

24th jan 2025 22:28:40

my mademoiselle said i could have put something i'd written on a piece of paper in the courier. i want to have your handwriting, she said. awww yeah la. why didn't i think of that. i asked if i should send another courier and then she told me don't cringe on me. why would i cringe on you, baby. i was genuinely confused that she'd even think that. she wants a little piece of my handwriting to keep. i type all day and somehow forgot that i could just write something for the person i keep writing about. i love that she asked me for this. now i want her to have it.

25th jan 2025 19:12:10

my hoodie reached my mademoiselle and made her miss me more. i asked how it was. big, warm, cozy and smells like home. home. aaaaah. i sent clothes and she found a whole place in them. she said she'd happily live in my clothes forever. i keep looking at her pictures in it. i want to hold her inside that hoodie so badly. my very cute girl. i love her to bits.

26th jan 2025 16:51:46

she tried again after a difficult start and told me it went great. yayyyy. i'm glad she spoke up about what wasn't working instead of just giving up on it. my mademoiselle is pleased with herself and i am so proud of her.

26th jan 2025 22:34:56

emergency emergency emergency. my mademoiselle needed a colour selected. by the time i replied she'd already chosen rose pink. i said rose pink too. correct answer, late submission. her sister is getting her a smartwatch and somehow i had missed the very important voting window. i like being asked these things. little decisions, very urgent messages, and a girl who will make the decision herself if her boyfriend takes too long. rose pink is good, baby. i support the committee.

27th jan 2025 23:06:34

my mademoiselle wanted cold coffee and wasn't expecting the waffles. she called me the best and then immediately needed help opening the lid. i suggested my forearms would've been useful if i was there. they've been getting a lot of appreciation lately so i thought i'd remind her they're useful too. she turned it down, smacked the lid and opened it herself. okay baby. there goes my opportunity to impress her. i wish i could sit opposite her while she has the coffee, watch her tell me all these things instead of reading the updates. i'd still like to offer the forearms though.

28th jan 2025 20:16:10

i am new to carnatic music and managed to get into a discussion with her about what counts as fusion. i announced it confidently. she said this isn't fusion, then we were both trying to work out the composition and the beats. excellent, two people figuring it out in the same chat. we agreed the singing was beautiful. that part was much easier. i like hearing what she notices while i'm listening too. my mademoiselle has questions and unfortunately so do i.

29th jan 2025 17:15:52

our connection was so bad that she couldn't hear me properly. she told me afterwards she'd been giving random replies. so i was talking to a girlfriend who was filling in the missing parts herself. i wonder how much of the conversation was the one i thought we were having. we did manage the important love you and kisses part. would be nice if the network could show the same enthusiasm.

30th jan 2025 19:57:48

my love had a difficult day. i wish i could make it easier for her. i want to hear her, ask what she'd like, be a little softer with my baby. she doesn't have to be cheerful for me to want to talk to her. i love her.

31st jan 2025 15:55:22

i love the way my mademoiselle imagines our future. i can get impatient about making everything happen and forget to listen to the person i'm imagining it with. she has her own thoughts, and i want to hear them properly. we don't have to solve everything in one conversation. i'd rather she feels comfortable telling me what she wants than feels she has to keep up with how quickly i'm talking.

31st jan 2025 21:02:40

my princess wanted something sweet and said no waffles. i found a good waffle and ordered it anyway. she reminded me she'd said no. yes. she had. then she thanked me for feeding her and later said it was yummy. i am glad she liked it, but i don't get to use the yummy as proof that i listened. she can like waffles and not want waffles in that moment. fairly simple concept. her boyfriend needs to stop treating a favourite food like a permanent instruction.

04th feb 2025 18:39:34

i put my mademoiselle's picture in my wallet. she said she'd wanted a picture of us in hers for the longest time and then remembered she doesn't even have a wallet. hehe my baby. i kept telling her it's the bare minimum while she was telling me how much it meant to her. i love that she appreciates these things so much. now i have her picture with me.

04th feb 2025 20:11:32

my love wanted an iced velvet vanilla latte with an extra espresso shot, whipped cream and caramel syrup. she even had instructions for chocolate chips over the cream. i tried to see if swiggy would let me customise it and she thought we'd have to use the coffee shop's app. after all that she wasn't sure they'd added the cream because the lid was too clean. if they'd put it, wouldn't some have touched the lid? my mademoiselle is investigating while i'm waiting to hear how it tastes. super, she said. romba super. then came this huge thank you and i won in life. aaaaah baby. i told her i'm so smitten in love with her. she called me the cutest thing ever to exist. all i wanted was for her to get the coffee she was craving and now i'm melting over the replies. i love her so much.

05th feb 2025 13:26:10

my mademoiselle wants to learn cooking so she can cook for me. and herself too, she added. i told her i'll cook for her and she immediately asked what if i come home tired from work. then we'll get a cook, baby. i am not marrying you to be my personal cook. she said awww but still wanted to learn. ofcourse i'd love to eat something she makes. i want to cook for her too. i just don't want her worrying about having to feed a tired version of me before we've even got to that part of our lives. she wants to try, so i told her to do it safely and tell me how it went. now i'm curious what my princess will make.

06th feb 2025 11:04:26

i miss her. sometimes i am so busy explaining my own feelings that i don't properly hear hers. i want her to feel that there's room for what she needs too. not just my explanation, followed by my next explanation. i love talking to her. i want to be better at the listening part of that sentence.

12th feb 2025 09:24:32

cutest pictures of all time, i told her. we are the cutest of all time, she corrected. yes yes my mademoiselle, we are. i keep looking at the cheek kiss picture. both our faces in that little selfie. aaaaah i love her so much.

12th feb 2025 12:44:32

my morning vn started with good morning and then give me a kiss, give me a kiss. she replied that her sunshine was awake. later i sent the same request again and my mademoiselle sent it back in her own voice. now we're just sending kisses and asking for more kisses over the phone. there's no useful information being exchanged here and yet i am getting exactly what i wanted from the conversation. i love hearing her be this silly with me. we can go from discussing whatever is happening in our lives to this without needing a reason. somehow we're managing to be very annoying together.

14th feb 2025 13:33:38

i wanted to surprise my love. she asked for me???? yes, for you. i have all these ideas and apparently still enjoy getting to tell her that she's the person behind them. i like imagining her reaction before she knows what i'm thinking about. sometimes i get so excited about the surprise that keeping quiet becomes the difficult part. my mademoiselle has a very unconvincing man trying to act mysterious.

15th feb 2025 17:25:58

my love was fussing over me and i missed her even more. this grown man is accepting the baby treatment with no resistance whatsoever. i like hearing her be soft with me. i can spend the whole day trying to be competent about everything and then she calls me her baby and i am quite happy with the change of responsibilities. i love her.

23rd feb 2025 16:44:56

my mademoiselle had the spicy maggi first and then the plain one. both were amazing for her tastebuds, she said. she hadn't even known she needed it and was calling herself the luckiest. then i tried to tell her how lucky i was and typed i am gifted to you have as you my girlfriend. what language is this. affection moving faster than the fingers again. she told me she loved me, so i think the important part survived. i love her soooo much. please read the feeling and forgive the grammar.

28th feb 2025 11:57:08

she sent her picture and aaaaah she's beautiful. i keep looking. i love getting these little updates from her, especially the ones where she sends her face and completely distracts me. my very pretty mademoiselle.

05th mar 2025 18:03:30

my love asked if she could call. just to hear me. she didn't need a long conversation or anything particular from me. she missed my voice. i keep trying to find proper time for her, and sometimes what she's asking for is as small as this. let me hear you. i want to hear her too, even when neither of us has anything especially interesting to report.

12th mar 2025 17:53:34

my mademoiselle has found hoodies with bunny ears and wants us to get matching ones. twinning, she said. i am trying to imagine myself in this outfit. apparently loving her includes the possibility of walking around with ears attached to my head. i don't think the younger me would've predicted this as part of his future, but the younger me also didn't know her. she can show me something completely ridiculous and make the idea of doing it together more important than how ridiculous it looks. no hoodies bought yet. my dignity has some preparation time.

13th mar 2025 18:02:22

roses in both directions today. she was thanking me for hers and then it was my turn. she sends me flowers too and i love it so much. i told her she deserves the best, meanwhile she's making me feel like the one getting spoiled. muah my mademoiselle.

15th mar 2025 02:26:34

i missed my love today and told her i was sorry i couldn't spend enough time with her. i knew she needed me. i don't want to keep putting all the attention i should have given her into an apology afterwards. i love my kannukutty. need to make time for her and actually be there for the conversation.

16th mar 2025 13:59:26

my mademoiselle found out mom can bake cakes and got so excited. so many question marks. yes baby, she can bake. i love seeing her get this excited over a little thing i hadn't even thought to tell her before. now i want her to have some too.

16th mar 2025 22:10:12

my mademoiselle has described her future cooking as i love cooking for my husband, and then it's maggi. i told her that's the thing i want to taste anyway. the food she eats, made by her, even once. she said she'd learn cooking and would even learn non veg if i'd cut and clean the meat. this is how a joke about noodles becomes a discussion about dividing work in our future kitchen. i don't need her to suddenly know how to make everything i eat. i like that she wants to learn, but i want it to stay something she wants, not something she's worried she has to do for me. i'll be very happy with the maggi too.

20th mar 2025 23:51:16

i told her i was looking forward to something and my mademoiselle said i sounded like an email. i managed to become professional correspondence at the most unnecessary moment. she wanted her boyfriend to sound like her boyfriend. i changed the tone and she said this is the energy. okay. feedback received very clearly. she doesn't let that office voice survive long when i'm talking to her.

24th mar 2025 00:27:04

i miss my mademoiselle. not for some spectacular reason, just because i want her. i want to hear what she's thinking and be distracted by whatever little thing she wants to tell me. there are pictures i can look at and messages i can read again, but i still want the girl herself. i love her so much. apparently i can write all these words and still arrive at the same very simple sentence. i miss her.

26th mar 2025 12:54:06

our pictures have become little animated versions of us. she asked who this was and i had to tell her you you you. then came more pictures and messages asking me to look properly. she said she was melting. awww. i love seeing us like this, the same faces in a completely different style. even the illustrated version of my mademoiselle wants my attention. yes baby i'm looking.

31st mar 2025 22:25:48

she said her man is the standard. then said unfortunately he doesn't meet the standards. excuse me? he sets them, she finished. aaaaah this woman. she knew exactly where that sentence was going while i was still reading the earlier bit. i love how she appreciates me. i can be a very difficult man and then she says something like this and i want to become ten times better for her. my mademoiselle. i love her so much.

05th apr 2025 23:38:24

my princess is showing me chairs for our future home. i sit on the chair, she sits on my lap and we have tea or coffee. that is how she explained this particular chair to me. aaaaah. i was looking at furniture and suddenly i'm imagining having my mademoiselle on my lap while trying to drink something hot. i like her plans very much. there was a sunflower chair too. we don't even have the house yet and she can make me want an ordinary little evening inside it this badly. i want to do all of this with her.

09th apr 2025 10:31:44

my mademoiselle has been shopping for skincare and there are fifteen free gifts. fifteen. she's getting some things from one app and the rest from another and explaining why. the app is annoying her but she's quite happy about the gifts. i am trying to follow all the products. she asked if i was mad at her. no baby, tell me. i like hearing her get excited about these things, even when i need her to explain what some of them actually do.

11th apr 2025 14:53:58

my love loved the roses and sent me so much love. aaaaah. i wanted to make her happy and now she's making me smile at the phone with all these messages. i love her so much.

14th apr 2025 11:42:46

she wanted a promise about our future home. she wants me shirtless. not necessarily all the time, she clarified, but that would be best. very considerate of her to leave some room for negotiation. then she explained that she can't argue with me when i'm like that. now this is information i should probably not be trusted with. imagine spending all this time trying to learn how to communicate better and finding out there is a wardrobe setting involved. i'm joking. mostly. i do love these conversations where our entire future gets interrupted by some very specific demand from her highness. i have not even moved into this house and the dress code is already being discussed.

26th apr 2025 14:33:42

my love was deep cleaning and found her old handwriting. amma has been telling her she doesn't write anymore and her handwriting has got worse. i suggested elaborate love letters. excellent use of handwriting practice, if anyone asks me. then she asked if she should write and send them to me. yes please, my lady. i would very much like that. i get her words on a screen every day, but something she's sat with and written by hand would be different. i'd have the page she had in front of her. the little changes in the letters. all of it. now i've managed to turn her house cleaning into a request for presents for myself.

28th apr 2025 00:23:02

she is preparing to wear a saree and there is a whole process i am getting to hear about. the pleats, how thin they should be, the shapewear, getting it properly draped. she said this would be the first time in her entire life getting it done properly. i hadn't realised that. i see the finished picture and think she looks beautiful, but before the picture there are all these decisions she has been making. now i'm invested in the pleats too. i want to see how it turns out. she sounds so excited about getting it right and i'm here waiting for the part where i get to look at her.

28th apr 2025 00:36:40

i told my love i want to spoil her and she asked me not to end up stressed after marriage with no time for my wife. she wants my attention too. i know. i can be so busy explaining all the things i want to do for us that i forget she's asking for me in the middle of it. i keep coming back to this same thing in these notes. attention. i love giving her things and making her happy, but i also want to have the time to enjoy them with her. i haven't figured all of it out. she has told me very clearly what she doesn't want me to forget while i'm trying.

04th may 2025 11:41:24

okay i made a list of the benefits of dating my mademoiselle and i don't think i've finished. golden retriever level yapping, otherwise very lazy. she can distract me from whatever i'm stressed about with something of her own and she'll offer to help with my problems too. she's patient with this forgetful man. i forget so many things and she'll listen to my explanation. she supports my dreams and the work that goes into them, but is also very happy when i want to rest. i love that. and she's opinionated. very opinionated, not afraid to disagree, can debate an idea with me without taking the whole subject personally. i can bring her the most absurd thought and there is an actual conversation to have. where was i. yes, benefits. i love her mind, her patience, all the ways she cares for me. i sent the list and she said this is why i love you. aaaaah my love. i should keep adding to it. there's so much more.

08th may 2025 08:09:56

my love wants to be kissed a minimum of 74967 times a day. that is the number she sent me. not 75000. 74967. i sent her a kiss immediately because apparently there is a lot of work to get started on. my mademoiselle has very ambitious plans for these lips and i am not complaining.

09th may 2025 20:44:06

she was trying to talk about travelling and i somehow started contributing airport baggage information. why am i like this. she wants to dream about going places with me and i've become a transport FAQ. i do want those adventures with her. i just apparently need help staying in the correct conversation long enough to say it properly. my mademoiselle and a holiday. yes please.

18th may 2025 00:35:48

she saw the old suit pictures and decided i should marry her now. immediately upgraded from looking at photographs to requesting a wedding. she said i looked handsome and younger. i was explaining the beard trim while she was having a much better time with the pictures. apparently the man in the suit has done very well with her highness. i should keep that in mind next time i am deciding what to wear.

22nd may 2025 15:38:16

my mademoiselle and i were talking about art and ai and she reminded me she'd already told me making art isn't that simple. i had been rather quick with my answer then. you're just mad because everyone can do it now. that was how she'd heard me. today i told her she had opened my eyes to a larger perspective. i learnt a lot. she wanted to know what exactly she'd changed my mind about and i said i'd explain over a call. fair question. i can't give her a vague certificate for changing my perspective and expect her to accept it without questions. this is the same opinionated woman i was appreciating in my list of benefits. the opinions don't stop being a benefit when they're aimed at something i've said. i like that she makes me think again. even when the first thing i have to think about is how confidently i dismissed her earlier.

23rd may 2025 22:54:04

her mac and cheese arrived and then she discovered the brownie. you added a brownie too, she said. she'd actually been craving something sweet and hadn't told me. excellent. i am very pleased with this accidental mind reading. i wanted to send her something she'd enjoy and the little extra turned out to be exactly what she wanted. my mademoiselle thanked me and i told her i love her so much. i like getting these excited updates from her. especially when there's a second little discovery after she thinks she's seen everything in the order.

24th may 2025 18:03:02

i sent her pav bhaji and vada pav and learnt that they are different things. apparently this was information i needed. she said the food was delicious, then got very excited that they'd added cheese to both. baby, i added that. awwww you did??? yes. she told me i always know what she'd like and that she was loving me the most now. very pleased with the effect of extra cheese on my standing in this relationship. i do know she'd love it cheesy. the menu knowledge may need some work, but i got this part right.

25th may 2025 00:13:16

she showed me her journal with the moon on the cover and her lipstick prints on the page. i asked if they were hers. obviously, she said. i wanted a picture of the kisses so i could frame it. she went awwww and asked if i wanted her to write all my kisses on you. i said no note needed and then immediately started wondering if i did want one. she thought the picture was already aesthetic. then she said next time she's marking it on my face. yes please. there were two versions of the picture, one edited to make the lipstick colour stand out more, and i wanted both. she said they're the same, pick one. i said both. eventually she gave up and said whatever you want. i love her handwriting, the little prints, all these things from her. my mademoiselle is making it very difficult to be reasonable about a page in a journal.

28th may 2025 17:18:48

my mademoiselle sent pink roses for her pretty boy. me. her highness has blessed me again and i love her so much. we were also discussing her phone because the touch kept getting stuck and i was saying we need to get an iphone. then the roses arrived and i got completely distracted. pink roses from her. aaaaah. i love being her pretty boy.

29th may 2025 19:02:52

my princess wanted something sweet, but not just any sweet. not jamun. not simply chocolate. we were narrowing down the problem. then the delivery became an inventory exercise. ice cream, chocolates and all the little things she'd been looking forward to. she wanted the complete list and was correcting what had been missed. nothing will escape inspection. hopefully one of these is the exact sweet her brain was asking for.

31st may 2025 12:35:18

i was trying to find some old animal pictures i'd posted. squirrel, owl, the mini zoo ones. my mademoiselle started finding the links for me and said she feels like the wife whose husband asks where the file is and then she finds it for him. i told her she is. hehe. i personally uploaded these pictures and now i'm asking her to locate them. i love that she knows what i'm talking about even when my entire explanation is that i remember putting it somewhere. my future wife is going to have a lot of things to find for this forgetful man.

01st jun 2025 15:10:20

my love couldn't decide between idli and ghee pongal. i responded by giving her more options. don't make me decide, she said. fair. i had taken a decision problem and expanded it. so i sent both, with extra sambar and chutney. you sent me bothhhh, she said. yes baby. very happy with her reaction. the pongal was super, she told me afterwards. i like that i can make her this excited about a meal. my mademoiselle and her food. i love feeding her.

07th jun 2025 11:47:26

i have been showing off the bracelet she gave me. it shines so much. look at my wrist, everybody. my mademoiselle got me this and i love it. i want her to see how much i'm enjoying her gift too.

10th jun 2025 12:07:24

i sent her the idli she wanted and she told me it was super. then she finished with a milkshake. my baby enjoyed her food. i love getting the little report afterwards, especially when it's this happy.

11th jun 2025 17:11:12

she said maybe she'd wanted cheese pav bhaji and hadn't even known it. i told her i know her. yes baby, i do. very pleased with myself today. i love feeding my mademoiselle, especially when she eats it and tells me this was exactly what she wanted. i wish the rest of my brain remembered things as well as it remembers what to order for her.

21st jun 2025 11:22:44

i sent her idli with two portions of sambar because i know she likes drinking it. she said just one would have been enough and thanked me. okay, one portion. i said i'd keep it in mind. i like knowing what she likes, but my instinct seems to add quantity on top of the information. my mademoiselle likes sambar. this does not necessarily mean she wants all the sambar. noted, baby.

23rd jun 2025 16:51:00

she wanted to know if the bouquet she'd sent me was small. eight roses? i said ten, counted again and had to correct it to nine. my hand and the bracelet were making it difficult to judge the size in the picture. i'd arranged them myself, which i do each time. then she asked about the thorns. i told her i don't remove them. they remind me that no matter how hard the relationship is, you should always enjoy the flowers. i mean the good things. i don't want the difficult parts to become the only things we can see. meanwhile her paneer paratha arrived in the middle of my explanation. hehe. she has sent me flowers and is getting her food while i'm sitting here being philosophical beside nine roses. i love her.

26th jun 2025 16:47:54

my mademoiselle fed me and wanted to know if it was good. then she asked if i was actually eating it now or letting it get cold. she knows me too well. i can get distracted even after the food reaches me, so she has to check what happened to her boyfriend and his meal. i thanked her. i love being looked after by her like this. need to eat while it's still hot instead of making my baby ask again.

30th jun 2025 18:48:50

thirteen kinder joys. she thought they'd all be disney ones again and accused me of arranging it somehow. then she started opening them. not even one disney. i wanted pictures. impossible. she was saying it's okay, we'll get them another time, while i was calling it a travesty. she looked up the word. so now the chocolates have produced a vocabulary lesson and a very dramatic boyfriend. i wanted the disney ones for her; the ones available were different. she was having a much easier time accepting that than me. then she called me her jupiter. aaaaah. immediately distracted from the toy investigation. i love her.

01st jul 2025 21:30:30

she sent roses and the card had a very unfortunate typo. she was mortified. i was trying to reassure her while she'd already decided on more flowers. what would i do with the ones i had? add them too, she said. overflowing vase. my poor baby. she meant to send me something lovely and ended up making a very dramatic flower delivery. i love her. typo and all.

06th jul 2025 15:17:26

i sent an affectionate message to the wrong chat. she found this extremely funny and instructed me not to end my emails with mwah. i said i might at this rate. i sent the next kisses to the correct person and signed off, regards, your husband in training. she liked that. i should really finish one message before opening another conversation.

07th jul 2025 10:54:48

my love asked if mom knows how to bake. i said yes, she bakes cakes. why. no wonder she made a cutie pie, she said. i walked right into that one. answered her seriously and even gave her the why she needed. now i am blushing. my mademoiselle has very effective ways of making this grown man feel cute early in the morning.

10th jul 2025 07:33:06

i apologised to her yesterday. i had hurt her and she had told me so. she said it was okay, but i was still thinking about it and messaged her again. i should have behaved better. it was bad from my side. no clever explanation to attach to that. this morning she told me she knows i can be better, she knows i am better, and that's why she got so angry. that is quite a thing to hear from someone you've disappointed. she still sees the man she loves and she's telling him his behaviour wasn't good enough. i told her i'd strive to become better. i want to be careful with that promise. it is very easy for me to write a lot when i feel something strongly. she shouldn't have to keep getting the same apology in different sentences. i love her. i want the way i behave to make that easier for her to feel too.

11th jul 2025 12:06:50

my love asked if i'd marry her if she were a waitress. or a coffee barista. why would your profession be a problem to me, i asked. i love her. i love how she thinks, how she cares about things, all the nonsense she tells me. she doesn't become a different person because she's making coffee. i want to marry my mademoiselle. that part is very clear to me.

18th jul 2025 00:03:08

she sent so many pictures in the red top. glasses, the little smile, then a slightly different expression. i keep going through them. i know some of these look almost the same, but look at her face in this one. and this one. how am i supposed to pick only one picture of my mademoiselle when she keeps doing these little things with her face. she's so beautiful. i want all of them.

20th jul 2025 23:50:46

she asked if i missed her. so much, my baby love. i can look at her face in a photograph whenever i want, but i can't get a reply out of it. i want the girl asking me things and distracting me. there is no especially clever answer to the question. i miss her. a lot.

23rd jul 2025 19:21:52

she made food with amma teaching her over a video call. she sent pictures and told me she was proud of herself. i replied nice. nice??? she asked if that was all the reaction. i was in a meeting, but look at her messages. she is so so proud. it tastes so good. and i've replied like a man approving a form. my mademoiselle has made something and wants to show me. i want the whole story. i also want to try it. need to put some of that enthusiasm in the reply instead of expecting her to discover it behind nice.

26th jul 2025 20:50:30

my mademoiselle arranged a lovely surprise for my parents and wouldn't tell me what it was. now i was asking what, send a picture, please tell me, and she was enjoying every second. how does it feel to be on the other side, she asked. terrible. i am very comfortable arranging surprises and apparently much less comfortable being excluded from the information. it was scented candles. a lovely gift and a very effective exercise in tormenting me.

29th jul 2025 21:07:44

we were admiring something lovely my parents had chosen for each other and she kept calling them cuties. i love that she enjoys these little family things with me. she gets excited, asks questions, makes a fuss. then i'm looking at something familiar with a little of her excitement added to it. my mademoiselle has a very nice way of doing that.

03rd aug 2025 09:04:10

her painting has been framed. i love that someone looked at what she'd made and decided it deserved a frame and a place to be seen. my little artist. i want her to have more of that feeling when she looks at her own work. she creates something and other people want to keep looking at it. very understandable of them.

07th aug 2025 10:34:16

she is trying to get a clear answer about our anniversary and i told her we celebrate us. that was apparently not a date. she's going through the old messages and i'm being very unhelpful with the actual question. i do love looking at those early conversations though. all the things we were trying to say before we could just say them. now the same girl wants her boyfriend to remember a date properly. i am very good at the loving her part and need to work on the remembering things part.

12th aug 2025 15:27:58

we are working out which hand the promise ring belongs on. i had confidently given instructions without being particularly well informed. she was saving her left ring finger for the engagement ring. i thought that went on the right. no, she said. then i argued that the promise ring should go where the engagement ring eventually replaces it. she pointed out she'd worn it on the right because i told her to and she'd assumed i had a reason. i did have a reason. unfortunately it wasn't a correct one. my mademoiselle had a very clear idea of what she wanted and i was still trying to catch up with the terminology. i would very much like to hold her hand.

17th aug 2025 19:35:32

she sent nail paint options and ended up with two boxes and an oreo. the renee one was very small, she said. i asked good small or bad small. good, just kutti. just like you, i told her. then i asked if these were the fake nails and had to be told it's nail paint. again. i am learning a lot about these things and apparently forgetting a few in between. she liked the nude shade and wanted to save things for a special occasion. meanwhile i kept telling her she was cute until she asked me to stop being so sweet. no promises, my mademoiselle.

25th aug 2025 18:28:56

the ring discussion continues. she is very clear that a promise ring and an engagement ring are different. i said promise to get engaged, potatoes tomatoes. she immediately said yes, potato and tomato are different. well. i have personally supplied the evidence against my own argument. my mademoiselle knows exactly which ring she means and i am here arguing with vegetables. i love her.

29th aug 2025 15:33:26

i asked my mademoiselle for flowers and she said she'd send them. aww baby. i was being dramatic and she was already thinking about making me happy. i like asking for affection and having this girl who wants to give it back. her very demanding pretty boy is quite pleased with the thought alone.

02nd sep 2025 12:20:24

she was complaining about her cuddle buddy not being cuddly enough. i told her she has me. i'll get jealous of anything else she cuddles. good save, she said. yes baby, please remember there is a very willing boyfriend here who would like that job.

05th sep 2025 20:23:36

my mademoiselle was telling me how much a family gift was loved. awww. i love that she comes to me with these happy little updates. now i'm happy about it too.

11th sep 2025 00:31:42

i want her to have room for the things that matter to her. i can miss her and still mean it when i say don't stress yourself, baby. i don't want affection to become another thing she has to prove. she already tells me she loves me in so many little ways. i want her to feel supported by me too.

16th sep 2025 10:47:10

my baby is pleased with herself and i want the full report. i love hearing about the effort she's putting into the things she wants to do. very proud of my mademoiselle. tell me everything, baby.

18th sep 2025 13:05:36

my mademoiselle and i got into a discussion about pointing out hypocrisy and whether it actually changes anyone's mind. i had a whole argument ready. sometimes people believe something because it's the first explanation they came across and they haven't heard a convincing reason to question it. then you make them feel attacked and suddenly they're busy defending themselves instead of considering what you're saying. you can win the argument and still have changed absolutely nothing in their head. she had questions for this theory of mine, obviously. i told her people change their beliefs. that's a big thing. you constantly update priors. yes, those were the words i used with my girlfriend. we said we'd explain more over a call. i like that we can have these conversations. my mademoiselle isn't just sitting there nodding while i finish my very compelling argument. she wants to know whether it holds up. i should be willing to give my own explanation the same treatment i'm asking other people to give theirs.

20th sep 2025 21:31:32

she has been calling me her little baby, lovely puppy, cutie pie and babiest baby. apparently none of these titles have an expiry date. aaaaah she makes such a fuss over me and i love it. i have absolutely no intention of acting like a dignified grown man while she talks to me like this. my mademoiselle loves me. i love her. very very happy boy.

22nd sep 2025 23:26:06

my love sent flowers and i want to remember how much love she puts into the little things she does for me. i also want to give her proper attention. i can enjoy being made a fuss of and still need to be better at making room for her. she wants her boyfriend, not just a thank you for the flowers. i love her.

24th sep 2025 16:54:24

she saw a pencil portrait of me and said she could sketch me better. lmao then sketch me betterrrrrr, i told her. she reminded me she'd already drawn my childhood photo once. drawing people was her love language, she said. i love knowing that. someone looks at your face long enough to figure out how to draw it, all those little things they notice about you. now i want another one from my mademoiselle. she has announced she can do better and i would very happily let her prove it.

11th oct 2025 14:38:34

she sent me her reminder list again. update love notes. tote bag recommendations. i told her i'd pinned it. pinned it. as if moving her request to the top of the chat means i've actually done either thing. she keeps asking for these notes and there is so much to write about her. i don't want her coming here and finding the same old entry again. i love that she wants to read what i write, i really do. need to stop making my mademoiselle wait for it. and the tote bag. must not get distracted and forget that too.

12th oct 2025 14:37:00

she remembered some chocolate donuts she'd loved and wanted those again. then came got my donutssssss and the inspection of what was inside. salted caramel and different fillings. she sounded very happy. i like being able to bring back a small thing she enjoyed. my baby wanted her donuts. very pleased to be involved in this particular piece of repeat business.

15th oct 2025 17:16:58

a gold plated rose for my princess, and fresh flowers too. she said they looked so pretty. i wanted to know all about them and she was explaining how she'd keep the fresh ones happy. i love that she takes such care with things i send. my mademoiselle and her flowers. very pleased with the thought of that.

16th oct 2025 11:30:14

i love the roses she sends and the letters she writes. i want to keep looking at them. my girlfriend sent this. my girlfriend wrote that. especially the letters. she sat and put those words together for me and i get to read them again. my mademoiselle has very effective ways of turning me into a sentimental man.

20th oct 2025 14:45:24

she has a mission for our thala diwali. she wants the big fireworks that go up and open into colours in the sky. she's never had the chance to do that, she said, and wants it with her future husband. we'll do it. i love the way these plans arrive. we're talking now, in the middle of our ordinary days, and she points to something she hasn't experienced and puts me beside her in it. i get to hear what she's been saving in her imagination. this one is apparently going to be quite difficult to miss when it happens.

24th oct 2025 14:08:30

i love being my mademoiselle's person. her person. this girl with all her thoughts and her jokes and all this affection has decided on me. aaaaah. very very happy with her choice. i love her so much.

25th oct 2025 12:59:54

i watched set it up early in the morning because i missed her and wanted to watch something that would feel good. a romcom. voluntarily. dad couldn't believe it and neither could my mademoiselle. she said she normally has to drag me by the ears to make me watch one. i had to tell her how much i'm in love with her because that is the explanation for all of this. i missed her, watched a romantic movie, and now i miss her even more. very well thought out plan from me. i want her beside me so badly. she has turned me into this man who goes looking for a romcom on his own.

25th oct 2025 16:36:08

she opened the bottle and asked if it was for her. yes baby, look inside. there were three. then she noticed something from a cake shop and wanted to know what i was sending. what else would i send from a cake shop, my love. i like this part of surprising her, all the questions as she finds one thing after another. my very curious mademoiselle.

30th oct 2025 11:24:08

my mademoiselle has a plan involving croissants, hot chocolate and watching emily in paris. i respect the preparation. the food plan is a very important part of the viewing experience, apparently. i want croissants with her too. she can give me her review while i try to convince her to let me have another bite.

30th oct 2025 11:25:38

my princess said the flowers i gave her make her feel like an actual princess. instant mood lift. awww. i love knowing something from me can do that for her. she looks at them and thinks of me, and i get to hear how happy they make her. my very sweet mademoiselle and her flowers.

01st nov 2025 20:04:42

i told her how can that be home when she's home. she didn't get it at first and i was explaining while she was telling me about her vegetable rice and yoghurt. then came the awwww. worth the explanation. i love these conversations where i'm trying to be romantic and also getting a full dinner update from my mademoiselle.

14th nov 2025 15:29:56

her specs arrived and i immediately asked her to wear them and send pictures. wear it wear it. she was making faces while i was asking for a normal one so i could see properly. she is so pretty. i keep asking for another picture and then another. i love looking at her.

17th nov 2025 18:16:18

the tote has arrived and my mademoiselle says it is BIGGG. then she sent another message. like BIGG. okay baby. the colour is olive green, not loud at all, and she wanted to know what i thought. beautiful. i like it. finally she has the actual bag after all those reminders and product pictures. btw that was one of the two things on her list. the other was updating these notes. ahem. i should be as useful with that one too.

18th nov 2025 16:28:46

i told my baby i'm available in private and in love notes. she's waiting for the love notes, she said. her and hundreds of people. deserved. i can't keep announcing this page to the person who is waiting for me to write in it. my mademoiselle remembers, asks me, comes back to see if there's something new. i love that she does. there's so much of her in my days and i want to put it here for her to read.

20th nov 2025 20:22:08

she had a rough day and wanted ice cream. she was going to order it herself and i asked if i could get that too. people will hurt me, ice cream won't, she said. aiyo baby. i wanted to sit with her after that sentence. i could send brownies and ice cream, so i did, and she said they were very yum when they arrived. i'm glad she had something she enjoyed at the end of the day. it doesn't explain away the things that upset her. i just want there to be a part of the evening where she can eat something nice and talk to me without having to deal with more of it.

21st nov 2025 19:34:12

she got the korean bun and wanted to know how i knew she loved it. HOWWWWW. i said i know. i am going to enjoy this moment. i forget enough ordinary things that being treated like a mind reader over the correct food is very nice. my mademoiselle got something she loves and sent a huge thank you. i love her so much. excellent result from the bun.

22nd nov 2025 23:37:56

she wanted to sketch something and found her old sketchbook ruined. there was this layer on the page and i thought it looked like oil. aiyo. i told her i'll build an art room for her. will you, she asked. i will, baby. but right now she wanted a sketchbook and pencils, so she gave me the list. faber castell graphite pencils, cheap makeup brushes for blending and a kneadable eraser. i couldn't find that eraser and we kept checking where it might be available. got the other things for her and she thanked me so much. then she said it had been months since she'd sketched. she used to do it when she felt overwhelmed, but now talking to me made her feel better. i wasn't expecting that in the middle of ordering pencils. she asked if i wanted anything specific drawn. anything you want, darling. later there was this skeleton taking shape with flowers and even the little suture details on the skull. woah. my mademoiselle made that. i want her to keep making whatever comes into her head, and i want to see all of it.

28th nov 2025 13:24:06

she loves the jeans so much she's going to marry them and have children. then cheat on them with the other jeans. lmao what is this. i was trying to find out how the fit was and she has already planned an entire future with two pairs of trousers. i think she likes them. i love how dramatic she gets when something is this good. my mademoiselle, please remember your boyfriend somewhere in all these plans.

03rd dec 2025 10:50:32

my love fed me and i thanked her so much. there was elaneer pudding too, which i hadn't tried before. i liked it. i like being looked after by her. i can be so busy thinking about what to send my mademoiselle that when she does it for me i become this very pleased, very grateful man. she thought of me. i love her.

04th dec 2025 17:46:00

my love called me santa claus and i thought she was talking about my tummy. no, she said, you give gifts. often. plus there's a cute little bearded santa doll which looks like me. oh. i went straight to complaining while she was being affectionate. okay i like this explanation much better. particularly the cute part. i love that she sees a little doll and thinks of me.

09th dec 2025 20:02:54

she was excited about a family occasion and telling me how lovely everyone looked. naturally i wanted pictures. i like hearing the little things she's pleased about and getting to be happy with her. she has so much affection for her people. i love that about her.

15th dec 2025 21:19:08

she wanted every detail of how her gift was received. spill, she said. i replied hehe. don't hehe, tell. fair. she'd put thought into it and wanted the whole story, and i was making her extract it one message at a time. i love how interested she is. i should give her a proper answer instead of being this unnecessarily mysterious man.

18th dec 2025 14:08:00

my girl is very nervous about meeting my family at christmas. very very nervous, she kept saying. what if they don't like her. i told her i'm here, she'll be with me, i'll take care of it. she wanted to know what i'd actually do, which is a more specific question than the reassurance i was giving. then dad handed me the phone because her messages were lighting up the notification screen in front of him. i told her. terrible timing for that piece of information. she wanted to disappear. i was saying relax while she'd just found out the person she was nervous about meeting had seen her being nervous. i am excited she's coming. i need to remember that it's a much bigger and scarier thing from her side than just turning up somewhere familiar with me.

21st dec 2025 18:55:14

packing discussion. did i really want her to bring the lavender hoodie and my hoodie. both? yes, both. meanwhile one side of the bag was already occupied by the lehenga and sharara, there were tops and three pairs of jeans and tracks, and more tops still drying. my girl thought she'd overpacked. i was being very casual about requesting two more hoodies from the man who didn't have to close the bag. she finally declared there would be no more shoes. she'd wear the white ones and that was it. fair decision. i love hearing all the practical little preparations because they mean she's actually coming, but i should probably stop expanding the luggage requirements now.

25th dec 2025 21:54:46

christmas with my girl here. after all the nervous messages and the clothes that wouldn't fit in the bag, she boarded the bus and asked me to come pick her up in kotagiri. there were stop names and map updates and a forgotten belt, and then finally the distance was gone. my mademoiselle in purple, beside me in the pictures, sunshine on us. i wanted this and now i'm looking at it. my girl here with us for christmas. i know she was scared before coming and i don't want to assume that vanished just because she arrived. but i'm so happy she's here. merry christmas, my love.

26th dec 2025 18:27:54

red top against all that green. my girl among the tea plants, by the water, near the stone walls, and then pictures of us together with her head against me. there are so many. i keep moving between the ones where i can properly see her and the ones where i'm beside her. different reasons to like them. i love that these days have left us with more than a couple of hurried pictures before someone has to go. i want to remember the places too, but i know what i'm looking for first in every frame. her face. then where i am in relation to her.

26th dec 2025 21:53:50

my mademoiselle dressed up in purple with her little bag, and me beside her in that shirt. look at us. we've already had a whole day of pictures and apparently i still want more evidence that my girl is here looking this pretty. i like seeing us dressed up together. i also like the very ordinary fact that i don't have to send her a message asking for a picture to know what she's wearing. she's here. i can look at her directly. it sounds such a small thing until most of your days together happen through a phone.

27th dec 2025 12:40:04

i asked my girl to proofread the speech. i was fourth on the itinerary and still trying to defend a bit i thought was honest and humorous. she said remove it. keep it diplomatic, no one needs to know these things, keep it sweet. i pointed out that the next two paragraphs explained it. she was not persuaded. okay. done. there is a difference between something being true in my head and it being the right thing to say into a microphone at a wedding, and my mademoiselle was very clear about it. she also paused to tell me i looked handsome. necessary encouragement for an author undergoing edits. her saree was still waiting to be draped and she had time to keep my speech under control too.

27th dec 2025 22:00:14

my sister's wedding, and my girl is there in her saree, with my family, in all these photographs. i keep going back to the pictures of us sitting together. her looking up at me, me looking at her. there's a whole wedding happening around us and then these little moments inside it. i am very glad she came. we talked about this while she was nervous and packing, and now she's part of the pictures i'll be looking at when i remember my sister's wedding. i love that. not just someone i tell about the day later. she was there with me.

28th dec 2025 20:19:36

my girl said she couldn't thank sathish enough for the pictures. he's amazing. i'm very glad we have them, especially now that the days together are turning into messages again. drive safe, she said. i told her i was missing her already and she said me too. i don't think i ever become particularly good at this part. we've just had all that time around each other and my brain is still expecting her to be nearby. christmas, the wedding, the ordinary bits between them. i want to go back through it slowly instead of immediately becoming busy again. i love my girl. i loved having her here.

04th jan 2026 14:46:58

my mademoiselle found a bookshelf for our future home and asked if i can make something like it. it should rotate. then she said the top is for vaseline, lip balm and hand cream. i am looking at how to make a rotating bookshelf while she has already decided where her things will go. i love these plans. she can show me one little piece of furniture and suddenly i want to build it and see her using it in our home. need to figure out the rotating part first.

08th jan 2026 17:19:34

her amma said our photograph looks like a painting. the frame, the subjects, the way it all fits together. now i can see what she means. she has her favourite and i have mine. i love that there are different reasons to keep looking at the same pictures. and i love that someone else looked at one and saw a painting of us.

10th jan 2026 18:37:16

i sent my love two types of lasagna and asked her to tell me which tastes better. she wanted to know what i meant by two types. now i'm waiting to hear which one she likes. i do want to remember the better one for next time.

11th jan 2026 23:47:00

she asked what i think about very silly, very dumb gifts. i told her no gift from someone you love is dumb, especially from her. oh you have no idea, she said. what if it's objectively too silly, has no purpose, but took good effort to become that useless gift. i would still love it, honeybun. she keeps making the imaginary gift more useless and my answer isn't going to change. baby, i keep dried roses. if she puts time into making me something, why would i need it to have some other grand purpose before i can love it. now i'm very curious what brought on this question.

13th jan 2026 21:29:20

i asked what pasta my charming princess wanted and got pinkkkkkkkk. done, baby. i told her i'd added a little surprise too and made her wait to find out. yayyyy babyyyy cheese toastttttt, she said when it arrived. then she asked if she'd ever mentioned liking grilled cheese because she didn't remember telling me. you did. i remember. i love getting this part right, especially when she didn't expect me to remember. she loved the pasta too and was very happy about all the black olives. i told her i prefer green ones because the black ones leave a taste i don't like. so my mademoiselle can have those. very convenient. i would still like a bite of that cheese toast though.

19th jan 2026 18:17:20

she wanted to sketch my face. i would love that. i want her to know i appreciate what she makes, not just quietly remember it and assume she knows. there is time and attention in a drawing. she's looked at something carefully enough to put it on a page. i want to look properly at what she's showing me too.

28th jan 2026 21:26:12

my baby played pickleball for the first time and wanted me to look at the video. she had to point out i wasn't looking. then she wanted to know if she'd played well. good play, good play. i told her i want to play badminton with her. i like seeing her try things and then coming to me with the report. in the yellow top with the paddle, figuring out a game she hasn't played before. i want to be part of more of these little first attempts, not only the person she has to remind to open the video afterwards.

29th jan 2026 14:31:50

my mademoiselle wants to buy cute dresses in bulk but says she has no occasions to wear them. she'd been discussing having to go on a trip just because she'd bought the clothes. i said she can wear them for me. i'll create occasions. this appears to have expanded the possibilities considerably because she now wants the entire savana app. she kept sending examples and i kept agreeing. i like looking at what she chooses. i like imagining her in it and thinking about where we could go. there is probably a more financially restrained way to participate in this conversation, but i am not currently demonstrating it.

30th jan 2026 23:19:52

my love keeps reminding me to look after myself. i like being cared for by her, but i should make it easier for her to know i'm doing that. i can get very absorbed in whatever is in front of me. my mademoiselle deserves a boyfriend who remembers he's a person as well as a collection of unfinished tasks. i love her for the reminders.

31st jan 2026 17:56:48

my princess requested snackiee and chociii and i asked what snacks she wished brought to her feet. bubbly, kinder joy, brownie and ice cream. then the app refused to cooperate. i kept checking, every ten minutes, then every minute. she was saying it's okay and she could try zepto while i was still trying to get this order through. finally it opened. done done done. my baby got her snacks and thanked me. phew. all i wanted was to send my mademoiselle some chocolate and i ended up fighting an app for it.

05th feb 2026 12:26:22

she told me about her valentine's gift for me and i said ahem, you're my only valentine's gift. i won't accept anything else. along with me, she corrected. something i can take with me and have forever. then came the warning that it's so dumb i can either hate her or love her for it. no in between. she loves it and hopes i will too. how am i supposed to not be curious after that. i told her i'm happy to be surprised. my baby wants me to have something from her forever and is trying very hard to convince me it's silly. i already want it.

07th feb 2026 22:27:44

she arranged the roses with the golden rose among them and the little pink heart nearby. i told her it was beautiful. i love seeing the things i've sent my mademoiselle together like this. the gold rose is still there from before and now she's put it with the others. she makes them look so pretty. i keep looking at the picture.

10th feb 2026 20:01:56

i sent her a little pink teddy and she was worried there wouldn't be space for a teddy bear. i know, baby, that's why i sent a smol one :p. she thanked me and i immediately asked her to look how cute it is. look at him. i love sending my mademoiselle these little things and then getting excited about them all over again when she sees them.

14th feb 2026 13:44:40

my mademoiselle was sending excited updates about her gifts. the pen, the roses, the little hearts, the earrings. then the necklace reminded her of the chain in the godfather. i was busy asking her to wear it and looking at how beautiful she was. did my princess like her gifts? everythinggggggg, she said. aaaaah my love. i love getting that response from her.

15th feb 2026 20:25:40

i asked my love how the surprise was and got BROOWNIIEEEEEEEEEWEEE. that is the reply. followed by it's so good baby and a very long thank you. i think she likes it. muah my baby, enjoy your brownie.

18th feb 2026 10:28:42

i want to see new places with her. hear all the things she'd notice, all the things she'd want to show me. i love imagining a holiday with my mademoiselle. yes please, baby. i want those adventures with you.

19th feb 2026 22:56:50

she found a watch with the scarlet sunset painting on it and fell IN LOVE. she kept telling me that part. i asked whether she fell in love with the painting or the watch. she likes the painting, but seeing it on the watch was what did it. she was looking for a moonphase and stumbled upon this instead. then she started explaining that she likes the feeling of falling in love with things. something has to call you towards it. her other favourite has constellations and a gradient blue dial, and she loves that one for the same reason. i asked whether this falling in love was about things or me. same feeling with you, she said, and guess what i HAVE YOU NOW. aaaaah my mademoiselle. i was asking about a watch and now she's explaining how she decided she had to have me too. i love hearing her talk about these things. she can make me interested in the whole story of a watch and then completely distract me from it with one sentence.

25th feb 2026 19:20:10

she tried avocado and the verdict was tasteless. i suggested salt. she also had berries and saathukudi, but the avocado had already received this very firm review. then she had to take a call and said she'd call me back. i want to know if the salt helps. i can become very interested in a fruit when it's my mademoiselle telling me about it.

26th feb 2026 15:36:38

she has berries and a plan to make smoothies with milk and vanilla ice cream. i'd sent sides and dessert, and she had ordered the other things herself. i like hearing what she's putting together. my mademoiselle has ideas and now i want a smoothie too. i would very happily volunteer to help with the drinking part.

02nd mar 2026 14:05:06

she asked if i'd remembered the curd rice. wouldn't miss it. then the delivery estimate seemed to have stopped believing in time. i want her fed, not watching a permanently approaching lunch. eventually it moved. finally. very invested in a food delivery because the person waiting for it is my mademoiselle.

12th mar 2026 22:02:08

i sent a big cheesecake and a rose, and tried to have a thousand kisses for my princess written in french. the message on the cake was not what i'd sent. i asked for a picture and got annoyed about it, while she was trying to tell me how big the cake was and thanking me. i should not let a badly copied inscription become the main event of a gift. the cheesecake was super, she said. good. the thousand kisses are still the intention even if the cake has failed to communicate them accurately. i wanted my princess to enjoy something lovely tonight. glad the cake itself did its job.

23rd mar 2026 17:16:52

she was explaining the idea properly. a café with a bookstore that also has a flower shop. three very strong reasons for her to be interested in one place. i told her to edit it and write it so i could reply. i like when she puts these things into words, when an image or an idea becomes something she can point at and say this, this is what i mean. i can already understand why this particular combination has her attention. books to browse, flowers to look at, somewhere to sit. i would happily lose some time there with her.

27th mar 2026 20:53:58

she finished the deer painting and decided it was her middest work. she blamed lost practice and the equipment. i asked to see it and then said courier it to me. she still didn't like it. okay baby, you can have your opinion of the artist. i would still like the painting. i don't have to be persuaded that it's her best work to want something she's made. my mademoiselle and all those colours. i like it.

04th apr 2026 19:00:04

we both complained about the paint hurting our eyes almost together. her message, then mine saying practically the same thing. jinxxxxx, she said. i love these tiny moments where neither of us is trying to be romantic and she still finds a reason to be excited about us. we looked at the same thing and had the same immediate complaint. apparently that deserves celebration. i'm happy to celebrate it with her. very united opinion from this couple on those particular colours.

07th apr 2026 11:55:06

my princess told me her pink kurta set with rose gold earrings looked very pretty. i asked for a fit check immediately. she was explaining how well those colours go together and i wanted to see them on her. she said she'd send a picture. yes please my mademoiselle. i love when she's this happy with how she looks and wants to show me.

08th apr 2026 23:17:36

her presentations are so beautifully made. i love the way she puts things together, how clearly an idea can come through when she's thought about the design. she says it like it's a small thing and i'm here trying to explain how impressed i am. aaaaah my very talented mademoiselle. i am so proud of her. i want her to understand that instead of politely accepting the compliment and moving on.

13th apr 2026 23:22:02

she has ideas for something of her own and i immediately started adding mine. i get excited. very excited, sometimes before the other person has finished the sentence. i like hearing her plans. need to allow enough silence for the plans to actually reach me. my mademoiselle is perfectly capable of having an opinion without me supplying three alternatives in the middle of it.

17th apr 2026 00:32:48

we were looking at an image of us dancing and she said it would be such a cute picture to paint. yes please. i asked for glasses and a beard on the man. very important, baby, i'd like to recognise myself dancing with you. she said yes. now i want to see what my mademoiselle makes of it. i love the idea of having a painting of us made by her.

23rd apr 2026 15:43:30

i sent a surprise with her food and she immediately asked if it was dessert. no. what then. wait for it, baby. then she guessed korean bun. it arrived and she announced she was right. there goes the surprise. she knows me too well now, especially when it comes to the things i like sending her. that's okay, my baby got her bun and i got to hear how pleased she was about being right.

25th apr 2026 20:21:44

she sent pictures in the black top and blue jeans and pointed out how good her biceps looked. she was very pleased with that picture. i was very pleased with the whole girl. i told her i was going to proudly show off. i like seeing her notice the parts of herself she likes and send them to me with that confidence. i don't have to persuade her to look at this one properly. she's already looking and wants me to look too. gladly, my mademoiselle. very gladly.

28th apr 2026 20:15:52

my love wanted a warm toned watch because she didn't have one. rose gold or gold. i thought she didn't like gold but she said she could get used to it. then she saw the order and said don't tell me you're sending a watch. i said i wasn't. when it arrived i had to explain that she'd asked me not to tell her, so i hadn't told her. hehe. she said it was cute and thanked me. then i said gold looked good on her hand and she corrected me again. rose gold. yes baby, rose gold. my mademoiselle got a watch and had to spend a considerable part of the conversation explaining its colour to the man who sent it.

30th apr 2026 17:32:10

i miss my love and sometimes take far too long to say that simply. i can explain everything around a feeling and still fail to say the obvious part. i want your attention, baby. there. much easier for her to understand than whatever complicated version my brain was preparing. i love her.

04th may 2026 16:05:52

she told me her food arrived and was passing on amma's question about whether the paruppu podi was finished. then suddenly, wait you sent me muffin. she hadn't noticed it before and she'd been craving something sweet like crazy. i asked if she hadn't seen it and got so much love and thank you back. i love these little second discoveries. she thought she knew what i'd sent and then there was something else she wanted. i still need to answer about the podi. the muffin has distracted both of us rather successfully.

05th may 2026 21:02:52

she has put a lot of thought into what she's made. i want her to know i'm proud of her. not just a little nice and then i disappear. i can see the care in it. my very talented mademoiselle. i love hearing her ideas and i want to give them the attention they deserve.

08th may 2026 22:30:10

she has reached a milestone and i am so proud of her. i want her to enjoy the feeling of getting here. she has her own standards for everything, even how a moment should be remembered, and i love listening to her explain them. my mademoiselle. very happy to be cheering for her.

13th may 2026 17:01:30

GOT MY PANEEEER. followed by thank you so much. she is very happy with her food and i love getting this announcement. my baby and her paneer. muah.

19th may 2026 10:15:46

i told her she has me. i want her to know i'm cheering for her, even in the parts where all we can do is take the next little step and wait. she doesn't need a perfect result before i can be proud of her. i love her. i want her to feel that support in ordinary ways too.

23rd may 2026 20:46:36

she is very very afraid of birds. the only bird she likes is a macaw. so when i say she held a bird today, please understand how big a thing that is for her. she was absolutely terrified. she said she nearly panicked, cried in the process, but did it. i told her i was proud. then i asked how it felt when the feet clasped her hand and got a very strong review. disgusting. she could still feel it and wasn't sure whether it was a good or bad feeling. i was saying they're harmless, but of course she already knew that. knowing isn't the same as being comfortable with a live bird gripping you. she did the thing anyway. my brave girl. i also complained about the camera work, which was probably less urgent than properly appreciating the person who'd just faced her fear.

23rd may 2026 21:20:10

my princess in the white skirt, with that hair and that smile. cutesttttt. there is one by the lamp i wish were clearer. i told her that, but i'm still looking at it. i don't like losing the little details to a blurry picture when i'm already seeing her from far away. i want her face properly, the expression properly, all of it. very demanding of a photograph, i know. she looks lovely. i can at least be certain of that even in the one i'm complaining about.

25th may 2026 00:37:04

i want to listen to my love more carefully. not just wait for the part where i can explain myself. there is a whole person on the other side of my words and i love her. i want the way i respond to make room for her too. some things need less defending and more attention. i'm trying to remember that.

29th may 2026 02:22:18

my love says she loves me and misses me. romba. me too, baby girl. very much. i don't have a clever way of saying it. i want to hear her properly and have a conversation that doesn't feel rushed. i miss her. that is the entire very important announcement.

31st may 2026 19:01:02

my honey bun asked for pav bhaji and i told her i'm sending it. i've asked for extra garlic powder too. let me know if it comes, baby. i can put it in the instructions but now i want to know if they actually remember it. i want her to get it the way she likes.

26th jun 2026 18:19:28

the pav was available again so i ordered it for her. we were talking about something else and i slipped that information in. she was so happy. then came got my paaavvvvv. yayyy. i like catching it while it's available and getting to surprise her with it. my mademoiselle and her very excited food updates.

27th jun 2026 11:49:32

she called her organisers life saving. she loves them. i told her i was proud and wanted to hear about it. my mademoiselle can get me interested in organisers now. i love how happy she is when something works exactly the way she wants.

27th jun 2026 23:59:20

she says everyone claims video calls make you miss someone less and ours has done the exact opposite. against physics. against nature. ULTAAAAAAA, she said. me too, my sweet bunny. i wanted to grab her and hug her so tightly. then she started telling me she wants to play with my hair, kiss my beard, my eyes, eyebrows, nose, cheeks, neck, forehead, lips. aaaaah i am melting. she just kept going while i became completely useless on the other side of the phone. i told her i love her the most and she said she loves me the most. then she decided to sleep. good night sweetie cupcake, she said. i told my sleeping beauty to sleep tight. now i'm still missing her and thinking about all those kisses.

28th jun 2026 15:26:20

she got her paneer and told me it was sooooo good. yayyy. i love feeding my honey bun and i love getting these messages afterwards. very pleased with myself.

05th jul 2026 11:37:58

you have me, i told my love. i want that to be an easy thing for her to remember. she can ask me for support. she doesn't have to make a whole case before i'll care. my mademoiselle. i love being the person she can turn to.

27th jul 2026 20:24:08

i told her i'd still win an arm wrestle if she used both hands and i used one finger. extremely humble of me. she was reminding me about my one finger challenge and i responded by making the claim even bigger. i am trying to impress her and be a nuisance at the same time. my mademoiselle has a very ridiculous boyfriend.

27th jul 2026 20:35:34

she said she was so so proud of me for doing an ordinary sensible thing. awww. i am accepting the encouragement. i do realise it's only exciting because i'm not always particularly sensible about looking after myself. my mademoiselle has a very stubborn man to deal with. i love her for still making a fuss when i get it right.

28th jul 2026 17:38:22

she was telling me she prefers journaling apps that let her handwrite her notes. the ones she could use on an ipad. there are whole apps for note taking, mind mapping and free hand journals, she said. i like how clear she is about what she'd actually use. i spend so much time typing and she wants to put her own handwriting on the page. i remember her asking for a piece of mine too. my mademoiselle really does like having the person's hand in the words.

28th jul 2026 22:57:36

she is turning a journal into a recipe book. the way my mom cooks and the way i like, she said. i love that. she already had the journal and now she's putting it to use collecting these recipes. she kept telling me how much she loves it and how good it looks. i asked if mom had told her the recipe. i want to see what she writes next. all those little differences that make something taste the way she remembers it. my mademoiselle is keeping them on paper.

06th aug 2026 10:42:18

i told her she's going to be my only girlfriend before becoming my wife, so she's the greatest girlfriend of all time. that's it. no further comparisons needed. i love calling her my future wife too. i can slip it into the middle of some nonsense like this and still get excited thinking about it. my mademoiselle is going to be my wife. aaaaah.

11th aug 2026 11:21:58

look at the roses, look at the chrysanthemums, i told her. they'd bloomed fully and looked beautiful. she said the blue orchid is her new favourite and she doesn't know if she's a bee because she's so attracted to the colour. she wants to drown in it. paint her whole body that shade. hahaha my mademoiselle, that is quite a review of a flower. i asked how the sunflower was doing. solo so it's sad, she said. one lonely sunflower while she's ready to become blue all over because of the orchid. i love hearing her describe what she's looking at.

11th aug 2026 22:36:22

my princess looked beautiful in her pictures. the flowers, the colours, her face. ethereallllllllll. she loved the cake too and was telling me about her favourite flowers. i keep going back to the pictures. my very pretty mademoiselle. i love making a fuss of her, and i want that fuss to be the kind she enjoys.

12th aug 2026 21:10:50

mom saw her pictures and called her angelic. very beautiful. glowing. yes yes yes mom i agree. then she wanted the outfit too. she found it and i was delighted by the whole development. look at this. my mademoiselle starting family fashion trends while i am still busy admiring the original. i love it.

14th aug 2026 00:56:22

her work was so beautifully done. i told her i loved it and that she's very talented. i am so proud that my boyvaries are boyvulating. she laughed. aaaaah my mademoiselle made that. i love her and i am so proud of her.

16th aug 2026 22:17:58

i want her mom's idli sambar. i told her i'd love to have a meal at her place someday. my love, i am asking because i want to. i want the food she knows and all the little stories she can tell me about it. not an elaborate occasion. just a lovely wish. i'd very much enjoy that breakfast.

23rd aug 2026 23:21:38

i thanked my love for the talk and told her i love her so much. i'll prove in actions > words, i said. she thanked me and told me she loved me too. i want to remember what i promised her. my mademoiselle deserves the effort after the words too.

27th aug 2026 20:51:22

i framed her painting. she said it wasn't worth framing and she'd make something better. how dare she. it's the most beautiful painting i've received. she said her non existent reputation was under threat. i was trying to tell her how much i loved it while she was conducting a much harsher assessment of the artist. she can promise me another painting. i am keeping this one.

27th aug 2026 22:04:56

she loves monet and was telling me about the paintings. i want to see beautiful things with her, hear what she notices, let her explain the little details i'd miss by myself. you aristocratic artists, speaking a language peasants like me don't understand. i love listening though. a holiday with my mademoiselle and her very excited art commentary is a lovely thing to dream about.

30th aug 2026 18:45:16

my instagram is now home libraries, house construction, interiors, painted walls, artisan kitchen things, clay vessels and wedding locations. i sent her the whole list. look what has happened to me. i go in to see something and now i'm looking at a library for our future home and things for a kitchen we don't have yet. i like quite a lot of it too, which is probably why it keeps showing me more. my mademoiselle has got into all my plans. btw we still need to figure out that rotating bookshelf she wanted. i should probably finish imagining one thing before adding an entire house around it.

05th sep 2026 18:19:36

finallyyyyy i am making something for her with my own hands. bedazzling the entire glass. i told her i wanted to make something to gift her and she said it looked so cute while i was still working. wait let me finish, baby. then came bestttttt gift ever. already. i haven't even finished and my mademoiselle has decided. i want to see how much more i can bedazzle it. i so often get her something and she makes things for me, but this one i'm making myself. i told her i'll compensate for the time i didn't give her attention. i know a glass doesn't magically give that time back. but i'm here putting my time into something for her, thinking about her while i do it, and i love that she's this happy to see it taking shape.

06th sep 2026 10:11:18

she thanked me and i told her i love her so much. i like these little exchanges too. my baby, her thank you, me telling her again. i don't need a huge thing to happen to want to write about her.

06th sep 2026 18:22:12

her food arrived. i didn't get the usual rotis this time and asked how the new one was. tell me, baby. i want to know if she likes these too so i can remember next time.

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